I had a beautiful session recently with a woman who had carried the burden of a serious mistake she had made over 35 years ago and it was still running her life and had infiltrated into her parenting and her relationships with her children and was she continuing to pay a "penance" as she blamed herself over and over. She had created a prison for herself and came to me to find some solutions for healing. Within 2 hours she had released it and felt so much lighter after our session together. It took courage to do so.
Some of this behavior of punishing herself and not forgiving herself had been passed down from generations before. As she let go of it, she literally changed the healing in her whole family! That's how powerful healing, forgiving and letting go can be!! This also showed how powerful not letting go and forgiving can affect many as well.
Why do we hold onto our pain and not forgive ourselves? It serves no one. If you are holding onto something that you continue to beat yourself up for and can't seem to forgive yourself for, please realize you are causing yourself more pain and it's being passed down to the next generation. It keeps you in a prison of not having deep, connecting, meaningful, and authentic relationships where you can be vulnerable and open your heart. It puts up walls that people can't get past in order to see the beauty in your heart you have to offer. It keeps us from being fully loved and fully giving our love to others.
I hope you find a way to heal because you deserve it! We came from light and we are made to exist in light and that is where love comes from. You were born to do great things and when we block the light out, darkness stays and numbness sets in. I encourage you to seek the God of your understanding and to let the light in and free yourself from the prison you have built around your heart by seeking and finding a way to heal. You are not your experiences, your sins, your mistakes, or your past. They do not define you! You are precious and you matter! Sending you Love and Beautiful light that you can one day see that for yourself. :)