Wow! As I look to the week ahead I am so excited because of what I get to create with it! Today is a new day and a clean slate to look at what will matter most to me and where I put most of my time.
There is a saying that goes " nothing changes if nothing changes" so look at where you feel like you keep spinning the hamster wheel and what you aren't willing to tolerate in your life anymore.
I was reflecting as I looked back at this past week at how much I people please sometimes rather than honoring myself. I did several things that made me realize that I put my needs on the back burner sometimes. One was a conversation I had on the phone with a distant relative who I'm not very close to. She is a very negative person and pushes people away very often because of her own inner pain. I had called to try to be of assistance at the request of her husband. After she basically told me she needed nothing from me and was fine which I was totally fine with she proceeded to invite us over for dinner on Sunday. I got a knot in my stomach and told her I would get back to her. I'll tell you more about this later.
In the past I have stayed in places with people as to not offend them even if it was extremely difficult for me. For example when someone is in a deep thought while they light up a cigarette. I am highly allergic and have asthma so you can see how much an awful situation this was for me. I stood there and did not protect my health first and suffered through the smoking and guess what? 2 hours later I was coughing my head off and downing the oils so I wouldn't get bronchitis.
As I reflected on this I wondered why I hadn't put my needs first. I could go through some stories in my life as to why and explain it away but deep down I know I get to change this. I get to start listening to me and my body's needs and honor myself more. I pay a price when I don't. It's about time I decided to matter to me. This week look at ways in which you could honor yourself more and create more win:wins than suffering.
In the end I chose not to go to the Sunday dinner invite. I decided it wasn't worth my time being miserable with a miserable person. I knew no joy would come from it because I had suffered through it before. So I choose me instead